Letting the tears dry inside

I hate this feeling. Wanting to cry. I want all of this shit to just go away and never come back! I want to leave this reality and submerse into my own. It's all I have that stays happy in this world. I don't want any of this other crap! And now I sound like a selfish screaming child whom nobody will answer for lack of connection. I hate being held back like this. Being entirely out of control. This life is spinning once again, and I am just as helpless now as I was then. Only now I'm more frightened. How many others must be hurt, and how many more must die before anyone gets a clue. What we're all doing here is pointless. Nobody loves anyone enough to stop caring about everything else. They can't see it. Let us just stop, take a breath, and move away from this perception of truth. I refuse to accept it. I will find the brightness in my happy today! Even if it means averting everything and everyone else to attain it. I'll find it...somehow.

It is that time already. School has begun and has been going for almost four weeks now. Yet I still don't know what in God's name I'm supposed to be doing! It's quite laughable. In fact, I find myself wanting to laugh about everything. I know I shouldn't be laughing though, and I shant continue if I know what's good for myself. I'll laugh about how awesome I'm doing with my studies afterwards. But for now, it's time to get to work. I will break these lazy habits and use my new ones to create more time to be lazy (wow that's a paradox). Anyways, no more time to waste. It's time to switch on the Japanese Techno music and to get crackin on some cleaning, some writing, and some school stuff! Until tomorrow!

Versailles

Here's an article I did for this band's latest album in my school newspaper (Since I live in the Southern US along the Bible Belt I might get lynched for this. But seriously! What's wrong with being different? NOTHING!):

Versailles debut album, Noble, released on July 16th of 2008 is among the most anticipated releases both in the American and Japanese music scenes. The unique sound of Versailles is sure to please anyone that enjoys a modern rock/metal sound with a twist of classical progressivism.



Noble begins with “Prelude,” a heart-stopping integration of symphonic choir and minor chord progression that builds into “Aristocrat’s Symphony,” the first introduction of Versailles characteristic heavy metal style, not to mention the beautifully articulate intonations of the vocalist. The next composition, “Antique in the Future,” is an incorporation of classic rock progressions with the smooth inner transitions of a minor chorus. Then comes “Second Fear, Another Descendant,” the first presentation of Versailles upbeat speed and dexterity. The song “Zombi” adds a refreshingly jazzy swing feel in contrast to “After Cloudia,” a high ranged and technical dual guitar composition that flows with transitions leading into “Windress,” the soft, yet invigorating vocal interlude of the album. This all points towards the climatic entry of “The Revenant Choir,” a stunningly arranged combination of the aristocratic verses modern day feel that so accurately defines the style of Versailles. The album then begins its immersion into “To the Chaos Inside” and “Suzerain,” both equally comprised of a purely heavy metal drive defined by ear splicing guitar shredding and the thrash of an unrelenting one-man percussive army. The sudden following of “History of the Other Side” begins the chilling descent from the power driven force of the albums prior songs into a more melodically driven combination of classically inspired melodies finally landing in a truly breathtaking portion of harmony between vocals and piano presented in the final song of the album: “Episode.”




It is very difficult for me to describe how much I truly enjoy listening to the music of this band. Their sound is everything you could ever want in a heavy metal band, minus the screaming, and quadrupaling the complexity. I also appreciate the classical feel that is present in all of their songs. It gives them culture and, moreover, greater respectability in my book. Classical training is the way to go!

Another very noticable feature of this band is that they are a true to definition visual kei style. Unlike the turn that many J-rock groups are making to escape the flamboyant femenin look of the past era, Versailles is stepping forward to bring it back. Their aristocratic inspirations bring back memories of Malice Mizer and other groups of the like. I currently have no money to buy their Noble album, but the second I do, I'm ordering it. Considering that I haven't been able to order an J-rock CD's in the past, this may sound empty, but I really think I might be for real this time.

Here are some pictures:














Kamijo (Vocals)

Recent Band: Lareine




Hizaki (Guitar)

Recent Band: Sulfuric Acid





Teru (Guitar)

Recent Band: Aikaryu



Jasmine You (Bass)

Recent Band: Jakura



Yuki (Drums)

Recent Band: Sugar Trip

To be lost...

Lately I've had this strange feeling of losing. Somewhat like the state in which one questions their own existence. It isn't a new realization. I've always wondered in the back of my mind. Though when the world decides to spiral in a different direction and I'm not there to meet it head on, it frightens me. The thought that soon, oh so very soon, my entire reality will become something totally new. I am helpless in stopping it...

I've been playing my guitar quite excessively lately. I'm ready to get going with a band and it's looking like I'm no my way. Myself and a few friends have finally decided to take a step beyond our minor pick-up group and make an effort to write some songs and learn some covers. So far, we have about 6 songs covered and almost 2 written. Our sound still remains to be heard, but I think we may find it some time in the near future.

I really should be going to bed. I like to be well rested before spending the day at school. I'll close this off with a picture of me and my guitar in front of the computer. It seems really random, but I noticed a slight change in my complexion today. It's probably just the way my hair fell. Who knows?